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Sunday, April 24, 2005
10th gradeAs I sat there in English class,I stared at the girl next to me.She was my so called "best friend".I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine.But she didn't notice me like that,and I knew it. After class,she walked up to me and asked me for the notesshe had missed the day before and handed them to her.She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek.I wanted to tell her,I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends,I love her but I'm just too shy,and I don't know why.11th grade
The phone rang.On the other end,it was her.She was in tears,mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart.She asked me to come over because she didn'twant to be alone, so I did.As I sat next to her on the sofa,I stared at her soft eyes,wishing she was mine.After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie,and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep.She looked at me,said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek.I want to tell her,I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends,I love her but I'm just too shy,and I don't know why.Senior yearThe day before prom she walked to my locker."My date is sick" she said;he's not going to go well,I didn't have a date,and in 7th grade,we made a promise that if neither of us had dates,we would go together just as "best friends". So we did.Prom night, after everything was over,I was standing at her front door step!I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes.I want her to be mine,but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it.Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!"and gave me a kiss on the cheek.I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends,I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.Graduation DayA day passed, then a week, then a month.Before I could blink, it was graduation day.I watched as her perfect body floated like an angelup on stage to get her diploma.I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it.Before everyone went home,she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her.Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said,"you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek.I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don'twant to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and Idon't know why.A Few Years LaterNow I sit in the pews of the church.That girl is getting married now.I watched her say "I do"and drive off to her new life,married to another man. I wanted her to be mine,but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it.But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!".She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek.I want to tell her,I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends,I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.Funeral Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend".At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years.This is what it read:"I stare at him wishing he was mine,but he doesn't notice me like that,and I know it.I want to tell him,I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends,I love him but I'm just too shy,and I don't know why.I wish he would tell me he loved me!I wish I did too...I thought to myself, and I cried.I Love You"---- picked up from some webbywoah i've seen soooo sooo many cases of this already lah. like my, its so true and its not only towards e gal u like. as in when was e last time u gave ur parents a big hug and told them u love them? when was e last time u gave ur friend a hug and told him/her thanks for being there? its like so typical, but i guess u'll never noe if u never tried. but on the other hand, after u tried, IF it doesn't go ur way, u feel dumb all over again. but i guess u could console urself, at least u tried. at least, i would not die with any regrets.personally, it beats not trying.
woah i dunnoe why but recently i've been in e more reflective mood haha. and its kinda getting to me to think about all this tings but the good ting is, i realise how much i've have at the same time, bearing in mind what i don't. and this brings me to my next point!
people yearn for what they dun have,
but they never treasure what they already have.
doesn't this make u more unhappy?
yea, i confess i do not preach everything that i say. but hey im not perfect! and i never asked to be perfect. but at least i keep it at the back of my mind, and when tings dun go my way, i look around and realise that i possess so much more that i ever knew.
and i'll just end by saying...
cast away ur pride,
dun keep tings to urself
at least try.
coz u'll never noe what would happen if u dun.
ps. bobo quick go n give ur pops a hug and a big thank you kiss. haha
