im on the verge of exhaustion, or maybe im already am exhausted. been sleeping late this few days, and chionging training. gungho

nationals nearing! 1 more week. my entire sec 3 canoeing training all rest upon this 1 race. weird how it feels to be in straight finals. weird how everyone's telling u that 2nd last is an achievement. weird how unsure i am of my speed compared to the others. cher wouldn't let me take timing, at least if i had a timing i would noe what i'm like compared to the others. but i don't. oh well, i tink i've been improving, at least i hope so. there's nothing much i can do anymore except pray that i'm in the mood that day. and of course it would help if 3 of my competitors capsized, then all i hafta do is get over the finishing line and woopie! bronze. hahah. lol and i haven't reach peak performance yet! this is kinda bad. haha~! but...
i tink i can make it.
i know i can make it.
i will make it.

lol my personal goal is to try and sneak a bronze. that would be a miracle considering the amount of time i had to change events and change BOAT. grrr. i tink i had onli 16 trainings in this boat, training for this event. lol 2nd last is the bare minimum cher sets for me. hell, everyone's betting that i get last. screw youu people. somehow, nothing gets to me really. im self-motivated and i guess it's something i picked up from captainship last year. no matter how tough the going, think about pushing more, not giving up. lol. i was telling mark that im 70% mental, 30% strength in canoeing. and i guess it's good. oh oh oh. ivan just added in his estimates, we still got lots of points to play with. cmon guys! it shouldn't be that hard.

oh oh. and since i was free, i opened excel and did my *ahem* calculations of the probable results of nationals. and it was quite a pessimistic estimate but hell, our school still leads ACS(i) 49 pts to 42 pts. ivan says it's quite accurate, and i tink so too. haha i gave myself 2nd last. but im going in as a wildcard. so every pt i get, is doing everyone a favour. im quite sure we'll clinch the B div title. for the simple fact that my predictions are usually quite zhun4. but C div is gonna get hell of a thrashing by SJI that's for sure. oh and berd, u and shi hong are vying for 2nd and 3rd placing. see, i've been quite nice.
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anywae, on the bright side! life's been quite fulfilling. been coping well wif the tests. am enjoying training. the only thing is that i've not been catching enuff sleep. been having headaches all morning and it certainly isn't pleasant! the beijing ppl are coming next week, lol scholars dun have to host. so i get to slack. at least for now. HaHA i should have shut my trap, coz now shieh lao shi put scholars as HOSTS TOO! to share the burden. lmao oh well. now i gotta tink of some beach games for us to play. haha alright im off! SIA's completed, means i get to chat (:

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