i broke the same promise thrice. i aint going to give any excuses. i apologised time and again but went on to commit the same mistake. honestly, im really disappointed in myself. i thought i changed as a person when im back from china, wanted to be a better son, better guy and everything. but maybe i still need to give myself a knudge in the back and tell myself to wake up. wake up.
dont want to lose you just becos of this, but it seems i've lost the trust and everything else i worked so hard for. and i noe it irked you. i noe how disappointed you are, so am i but i can onli try and make it up next time n really set my mind on keeping the promises.
n running away doesnt solve anything. perhaps it just gives us some time to calm down and time for me to reflect on why i keep breaking my promise.i noe nothing i say now can change anything, and seriously the feeling sucks. i always tried to put her before me, really tried. sometimes i manage to do so, and other times i couldnt. but i know dats not what she wants.
if there's something i wanna tell you, its dat i really like you and wadever i did or am going to do, i never meant to harm you in any way. its just that im not perfect and of course i make mistakes, everyone does, maybe i make a little more mistakes than normal. for once, i really wish that i could undo time and be alittle more attentive and sensitive to her, i really wish i could. dont want to let her slip out of my life just like dat. she means too much to me already.
im in too much of a confused state to really put what i wanna say down in words. maybe later.