today had maths test, kinda weird taking the same paper again. but i did my homework by re-doing everything at home once.. so i guess i've tried. and i tink i'll get full marks too. mr peng was nice to point out one careless mistake, and i realise most of our teachers are great, just that we dont give them due respect. small things or big things, they all add up to the current relationship we share with them.

today was probably the most meaningful day of LDP. ironically, it wasnt ldp itself but sam's company as a friend. lol i remember us happily deciding to slack and be late for ldp.. but guess what! lol we met our nj group members at the bus stop lah. and we tried to hide, damnit we look so silly hiding under the seats but what the hell, they ended up being pushed all the way back to stand, right beside us! hahaha we still had to live up with that sad fact lol. oh well, but at least we still managed to enjoy a nice lunch. haha thanks for the lunch treat sammu. anyway it's great to finally let it out, albeit not completely. i do trust in him but i just cant bring myself to let out that vortex of emotions in me. thanks for listening. as he said, he'd rather be nice to a friend all year round and not just be especially nice on their birthdays, it does make sense. and of course, i know that we both dont want to be where we are now, but i guess that's life. but really, i just wanna give a big thanks to you for listening, and sharing. anyway, hope u keep in a mind that last words of mine before i boarded the bus. go frodo, and find ur happiness.

and i just had this short convo with yc... it's funny how we resort to allegories and everything but the thing itself, yet we fully understand each other. we didnt need to spell it out, but i understand. but i still feel that watching a balloon flying up into the sky is much worst a feeling than trying to grab that elusive balloon that seems so near yet so far.

as i watch this outter circle of friends stepping to take up the void they left, i wonder whether i would reciprocrate them by opening up more. i did make mistakes, but i never had a chance to make it up, or at least it seems to be that way. at least sam and i both agree that...

small things add up with big things to form something. and as i watch my balloon go up the sky, i feel myself clutching to the string that holds me too my balloon.