im really sleepy now, can hardly open my eyes. i've my medicine on one hand, the candle bear on the other, and my english file on my lab.

sometimes, there are just so many things that cannot be verbalised, well at least in the case of me. i ought to listen more, blunt the edge of my pride and sharpen my humility. i remember reciting that in sji. somehow it slips my mind at times that there's a reason why i've 2ears and a mouth. one mouth only. big mouths are ugly, as according to mum, but to me, it's not literally BIG as in size, but a senseless mouth that's the ugliest. there are so many occasions where looking bck now, i only feel like biting off my tongue. also, i tink i really am too preachy. it irks people. yet they dont know that im just trying to put across my point of view and i never meant harm. so i guess i'll learn to hold my silence, not blindly say what people want to hear, and not just say what i want to say. a delicate balance is being sought after.

i hate it to when people shut me out. let me know where my mistakes lie instead of pouring icey water on me and leaving me out in the open wondering where have i gone wrong. if that's the case, i'll never learn. if i never learn, i'll never grow. i gotta know, yet no one wants to let the cat out of the bag.