So im on the last few chapters of the fifth type of ambiguity. now im starting to really enjoy the book but im still caught up with interpreting it. oh heck it was meant to be ambiguous anyway. And so(somehow i like beginning sentences like that), as many observers pass their comments, i never put it to heart. If i did, it would have bothered me so much.

Strange how i just argued with my mum as she sits beside me watching TV while just beside the computer. and she just turned around. woah but she had the decency to turn back. finally i manage to throw out all the shit and it made me feel so much better. not exactly attacking my mum but trying to get her to understand what irritates me the most (that she never fails to do). You asked what she said, but it doesnt really matter anyway. lol on a side note, it's just like what huijun smsed today zomg. that is ultimately funny cos she was so naive lar - - for one, she is not so petty. for two, it doesnt matter anymore. Anyway mum just says she dont think its the right time. Technically speaking, mum doesnt favouritise tracy just like how ah ma likes you. so im stumped when ah ma ask me when im asking you over again. Mum soliloquises again.

let it be i say, maybe in a few more years. maybe if there are anything left in us. then, i perhaps can be more of what i want to be.

i never could be what i could be. the glass is half full right, mr optimistic?
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anyway random.. but szuan dont CRY CRY. lol
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i dont really think im any much coherent now. my mind is in this constant whirl. im like an aeroplane in constant turbulence. i'm in this somewhat transient state of mind - not happy, not sad - not tired enough to sleep, not energetic enough to do much. maybe i'll blog again later. give me half an hour to settle this raging beast.