mum issued a total ban on all computer activities next year just cos i was on WOW for an hour or two. gee aint it post-examinations already? sure doesnt feel like it.
to add to this, i doubt i'll be able to train anytime soon. and mum issues, yet another total ban, on all footballing activities. i dont actually think all these bans have any effect on me. the moment i feel ready to go, i'll be strapping up my boots and relishing the training sessions that i miss so badly.
now, what else could add to the days horror already? imagine receiving an sms by your CT telling you to attend a downgrading briefing tomorrow. wow, when it rains it pours.

on a side note, i finally managed to stream the song that has driven me nuts these few days. i cant remember ever being so infatuated with a song before. and i realised that i've been succumbing to so many cheap thrills aka filament and anonymously yours (inside joke). it makes me feel guilty somehow. but i dont really care anymore, i aint gonna do anything silly.

right now, i cant fall asleep knowing that the road ahead seems so bleak. and no i'm not emo, i'm just upset. right now, i just want to recover instantly and jump into my football gear. right now, i dont have the strength to think, to believe, to have faith in anything, or anyone as a matter of fact.

ahh, how to save a life by the fray runs in the background right this moment. aptly put, someone please save mine.

cherrylene says i laugh too easily. i say, if i dont laugh so easily, i'll probably end up lying in some dumpster, drunk, depressed and everything else. laughter truly is the best medicine for anything. but beneath this superficial layer of a happy me, lies a vulnerable, upset soul. all it takes is a small knock to break this delicate facade that i so precariously bunker-ed myself in. dont worry, i'll be fine i guess. it always ends that way.

but the wounds arent fully healed. they tend to open, and like old injuries, scars me for life.

a rude awakening indeed.