psuedos suck. cherrylene's a lousy psuedo btw.

on the more serious note, i think i've an arrogant swagger or aura, whatever you call it, around me. i dont know why but i keep feeling like there's something that i need to change in myself. but maybe that's what makes lilong, the snobbish, thick-skinned skum he really is haha. but in all honesty, dull my edge of pride and sharpen my edge of humility. i remember reciting this all day in sji, it was somewhere in some prayer i think.

preparing for OP is fun. okay maybe it's just me. but i do enjoy presenting to some extent although i get criticized and laughed at all the time for my skewed pronounciation and unnatural accent(which just comes about, pardon me, but yes naturally) dont ask me why but i just change when i present. its funny coming up with ideas to start the OP and more hillarious considering the many inside jokes that we have during our PW discussions.
but excelling alone is one thing, excelling is a group is the challenge. i enjoy leading in the sense that i like to bring people forward together. like including everyone in the advancement of the juggernaut that we all belong too (if you get what i mean) and i hope that we'll all do well as a group. actually i am sure we will.

oh and i aint hormonal anymore. (although edlyn still thinks so). lilong's back to normal like finally. it's strange how i have my own ways of therapy. many could see i wasnt myself, but only my close friends linked it to a reason. the true reason that is. but i think i'm finally okay. yet, i am not in the mood to plunge into another emotional rollercoaster ride. i think i take relationships too seriously. lol. so shutup already sam! hahaha

i'm enjoying life at the moment. and since my parents dont read my blog, (maybe my sister does) i'll like to confess to succumbing to playing soccer this week. okay i was only the goalkeeper and guiltily enthusiastic in replacing the injured zhihong. in the process of attaining cheap thrills, my knee gave way again despite not doing anything much really. as jijo says, it clearly is an indication that i aint ready to train yet. sigh, that's the only thing that's fucking annoying me like hell. i want to train more than i need to train.

sorry for the outburst again.