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Monday, October 15, 2007

sorry for the rants and being so low recently. thought about it. pretty much my own fault for such grades. just view the archives and you can see how i've been slacking so much. so, sorry to mum and dad, let you both down so much. and i let myself down even more.


aside from the american propaganda, i do enjoy this postsecret postcard. actually i feel so much for it, yet it's hard to put it down in words. let's just all interpret it in our own way.

class outing today at sentosa. had many enjoyable moments and it's been sometime since we had the class out in full force. oh wait, i actually realised that the whole class was there. haha. when you let go, when you no longer feel so inhibited, you'll really enjoy yourself. so let loose.

and i finally let it all out. i mean, revealed so much about my past. and its true that when one confronts the past, one can then truly heal. if not it'll always bog me down. admittedly, i still kept some stuff back. and it still sinks me like an anchor at times. so on the way back, rachel wanted to listen to those slow songs which set me on an emotional whirlwind at the back of the double decker bus. man, i should start clearing my ipod and rid it of those sad songs. i almost teared. almost.

i still sincerely wish you all the best. and i hope you can find another guardian angel soon. i'm just too tired and too hurt to carry on protecting you like i always thought i did.

and it all came flowing out. almost, no more.