i'm getting introverted. strange, but true. en loong, i no longer 90% E haha! aiyah but honestly, i seem to have got quieter. perhaps not so much in class, but rather outside my social circle. i remember being able to strike up conversations with random people and sustain it for quite some time, but nowadays i'm just too tired/lazy to do so.

yikes, i think it's the impact of being a J2 along with huangcheng and what not. life just flash across and there are just so little chance to make new friends as opposed to last time.

and in case any of you are wondering, i AM alright. there's nothing wrong in my life at the moment, so pardon the melancholy.

today during lit, i kinda gave up on the analysis of the dramatic unseen text. it's just so ??? and certainly super difficult in writing about it. then when i stopped writing, and ms heng went to run her errands, i turned over and read rui an's paragraphs. it was there and then that i realized he, along with joshua, is in another dimension. their writing and train of thought is unparalleled and almost perfect. it's scary. and A levels remind me of the 'bell curve' marking. i wonder whether i can improve and catch up with them. considering i got a high C for Mr Wong's essay, i think i'm doing alright. but i am a long, really long way from rui an's standard.

and that really is depressing.