i feel quite remorseful over my dismal attitude for huangcheng haha! sorry melvvvin. but aiyah, sometimes he's mood swings are uncalled for too. anyhow, there are really times when there is nothing to do. rather, nothing visible to do. oh well, i guess i've to continue acting busy though i must say i've done quite abit today lol. and i've given one of my firsts to huangcheng. my first time sewing hahaha. realized that there are quite funny characters in dao ju. and i've began to enjoy going for huang cheng, and staying longer each time lol. it's just a heeheehaha session most of the times, amongst doing work of course. and there's a only a few days left to go. so might as well step on the accelerator.

school's been fleeting past. have been catching up on sleep during lessons too unfortunately. it's not really cause of huang cheng but more so of late nights. that reminds me. i really get very irritated when mum parks herself downstairs, waiting for me to go to bed. you know, the virtually non-interaction yet painful silence that gives rise to a very very tense and unhappy atmosphere. i hate to be watched. and more so, hate to not be trusted. i guess if i somehow can score decent grades for blocks my life will be so much easier. and average of B will already be super impressive. haha and for once i think i can do well. that is if i put in effort, but i never do more often than not.

and if there's something that drives me to do well, it's not disappointing myself again.

happy 18th birthday jerry. i dont know how to celebrate mine except throwing a small party. then again, i've never actually had a birthday party lol. it's always a simple dinner with my family (not that i mind). but maybe i can try something new. haha!