i'm all caught up with VBC once again. say hello to those unearthly hours where one of us will wake up and all blurry-eyed(ly) switch on the computer to play the game. it became more of a game last year. i think i was, to some extent, obsessed in the competition. i love the feeling of winning just as much as i hate losing. this drives me to do the things i do sometimes. thankfully i'm still guided by my principles. all this strategizing and planning made me realize that i'd really like to study business/management in uni. dad suggests econs and business management double degree, and i don't know whether i'm up to doing a double degree (if it exists in the first place). and all this hype about preparing for uni, aka talks and scholarship guides, are pushing me to the point that i'm repressing the want to study. i can't explain it. but the more stress i am, the more i am pushed to study (by my parents), the more i resent it. my self-motivation gets a dent by all this, or perhaps it's just an excuse.

on a side note, anyone wanna offer to help me find a nice 'not emo' blog template. gee why does everyone think i am emo just cos my blog color is BLACK. besides, if u know me, u'll know that my personality is the exact polar opposite. i think optimism has guided me through the viccissitudes of life. (lol, new word learnt from mr wong) i dont know whether i spelled it correctly but it just mean ups and downs of life haha.

once again i'm wasting my time online. currently there's 3 things on my mind. 1.winning vbc, 2. winning BBI 3. study harder. if i achieve 1, or more importantly 2, i'll treat everyone who read this HAHA. darn i really wanna go silicon valley for a business tour. lol and enloong is crapping with me online. i've decided that 250k/annum does not compensate for my lack of interest in PSC, if i actually get that scholarship. 2.5million per month sounds so much better HAHAA. continue dreaming lilong, i'm sure u can earn that much. if only my business plans are as good in theory as it is in practical. if it was, i'd by now, be a multi-millionaire many times over. did i mention, some guy was apparently impressed by our presentation he offered to buy it for a few hundred thousand but the school rejected. (our product simply cannot be proven to work haha) wow but that's so cool. business is the way to go maaaaaaan.

aight, i gotta go off for lunch! good luck to you and you and you for nationals. dont bother figuring who 'you'(s) are referring to. rather, have fun doing so. because they aren't referring to anyone in particular HAHA.

ps. I REALLY DO NOT WRITE LETTERS AGAIN AND AM GETTING TRAUMATIZED EVERYDAY FOR IT.