finally found the song url to link onto my blog. i'm not having the best moment of my life that's for sure, and i hope i can snap out of it. had strange dreams last night, not one but a few. from killing whales/elephants that lie on the jetty to other stuff, i dont know why but those dreams were so weird. perhaps poe/coleridge is getting to me.

i've also pledged so many days to stuff that doesnt seem to matter now, ie being a facilitator at some SL symposium rui an is organizing, to CIP day at IMH and even VBC. i think i really need a good chat, just can't find anyone that have the time or am on the same wavelength. it's not everyday that i am looking for a confidante, in fact, most of the times, i play auntie agony. ironic how i cant even solve my own problems yet people deem me as someone who offers, to some extent, decent advice. i dont think i ever really confided in anyone. i dont know whether i will.

and i think i just injured my knee. well, not permanently but just strained the graft abit too much. sigh, i dont even dare to kick a ball now. i've to resist the urge. it's not worth it, after this 6 months of physiotherapy. just 3 more months and i'll be able to play. it's just 3 more months. every inch of me is bruised, i need a day where i just sit back and dont do anything.