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Saturday, May 17, 2008

just as how mel puts it, i wish we could go back to sec 3/4. but we cant, and i'm glad we are still as close, if not closer than before. some bonds don't break. these friends bear testimony to it.

-Sometimes, it is harder to be a teacher than a student today. and as a CT rep, or pseudo one, i feel i could and should have done something to change the class culture. there are times i just wanted to take some time off CT sessions and without the presence of any teachers, have a chat with the class. sad to say, i chicken out always. i do care for my class, and i feel partly responsible for all that's happening now. truancy, lack of punctuality, and most of all disrespect.

attitude speaks volumes about a person's character.

on another note, Shake08 was sadly, mediocre. well, barring the fact that tickets were grossly oversold. i certainly didnt enjoy sitting on the floor. i think i preferred last year's dances. they could make my hair stand. what lack of emotions. the emceeing was beyond redemption, and the lighting was quite distracting. yet, i did like a couple of dances, and more importantly, seeing how my pseudo mum's hardwork have to fruition. i look forward to ms dong reverting to her old, somewhat happier, self.

as for me, i think i've kinda seen the light. study schedules will follow soon after. i really want to do well and prove a point. i'm more than just talk. as mr leong puts it, i shouldnt keep lowering my expectations, which my mum agreed. perhaps wharton, though currently an impossibility, will be possible if i put in effort. notice the present tense. i have to do it. i'm not going to end up regretting once again.

thanks sis once again for the wallet. i love the smell of leather haha. and if u're reading this, tell mummy to stop worrying unduly. for one, i'm NOT attached, and for two, i will work hard.

(and on a completely random note) i think i want to emo to mr wong (for fun). he can become so "benevolent" as edlyn puts it. i think i need to let everything out and only then i can focus.

lastly, cheer up people. it is not the end of the world. there's always something else to look forward to in life. be forward looking.